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yuck

mood: depressed depressed
music: Holding onto a hero from Footloose
Can I just say that I am such a sloth sometimes.. I have been SO depressed lately and so to deal with said depression today I decide to take a nap while Emmalee napped.. How ridiculous is that.. It was completely understandable when Emmalee wasn't sleeping through the night, but now she does (and has for months!).. GRRR.. I need to do something about this.. I have gained 15 pounds since giving birth.. And since I was already over weight it is now REALLY bad.. But when push comes to shove, I'd rather watch Days of Our Lives and eat popcorn than take a walk.. Now I find myself turning the TV to Noggin (the kids channel) and sitting on the floor playing with Emmalee.. I say to myself, "Your bonding".. How sad..

Posted on Sep. 6th, 2006 at 08:58 pm | | Leave a comment | 2 comments | Add to Memories | Share

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[info]eversearching

You know what? I think being a mom sounds really really hard, and I think that you are pouring all of your energy into it, and that you shouldn't beat yourself up over not having more energy to do things like exercise. I'm not anti- exercise- it's good and healthy and I want you to be healthy because I love you- but I think it's even more important to be realistic about where you are. Is there anyway that you can redistribute your energy a bit, my love? Can you get just Michelle time- maybe three, four times a week? And just do what makes you feel good during that time? I bet at first what feels good will be long baths and watching tv and anything that relaxes you- but I think eventually then your body will stop craving a break and you might feel like- oh, going for a walk or doing something else. And then you can do that?

Is that something possible, love? What would it take to have someone else take care of Emmalee for that bit of time? And you cannot feel guilty- you are doing your daughter (and husband) the best thing you can do to take care of yourself.


I love you so much.


Sro
Posted on Sep. 7th, 2006 05:13 am (UTC) | | Thread | Reply

[info]mommy0901

Thank You

I appreciate your praise.. I just needed to vent a bit I guess.. :)

I don't usually get "Michelle" time.. It's usually Michelle and TJ, or Michelle and Katie, or Michelle and someone else time.. Anytime away from Emmalee is usually spent with someone else.. It sucks.. Anyway.. Thanks for you encouragement.. and since you wrote this I have taken 2 nice long baths and gone for a tiny walk.. It's a start..
Posted on Sep. 11th, 2006 07:38 pm (UTC) | | Parent | Thread | Reply